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Aku rindu. 

sekali sebulan

Semalam sudah. Jadi bulan ni punya cerita dah langsai. Tipu aku cakap aku x eksaited gila babeng tengok whatsapp dari kau. Siap guling2 lagi bhaiii hahahaha. Walaupun cuma sebulan sekali, sumpah, cukup :) tipu kalau aku cakap aku x tunggu apa2 dari kau tiap2 hari, tipu sangat. Tapi itu lah, takpe aku faham. Kadang2 bodoh jugak bila fikir balik, apa yg aku tahu pasal kau is nama n asal. Pastu terus percaya pulak, bagus sakinah, bagus. Hahaha. Jangan risau, lets just see whats gonna happen next. Let the time decide bebeh. K chaw.

thank you

Not one day passed that i didnt think of you at all. Call me crazy or whatever you think i am. But hey, you could make me forget the world. Good or bad as it may sound to you, i love it. So thanks for being there for me. Always. And i do miss you.

enough.

Nothing is left of me.

whats on my mind now.

• i owe money to my father.lots of it. because of some mistakes i made regarding the house. gahh. so how am i supposed to pay it back? working? when? huh...

• mid semester exam is just round the corner. what had i studied? none. what i need to study? everything. what i want to study? nothing. 

• today just got 'kuiz mengejut' . guess what did i get? 1/2 out of 10. not even a one. eff.

• this person. all the questions. all the whining. damn. "harini tak keluar?" "kenapa balik lambat?" aaaaaaahhhhh -..-"

• im still waiting for the promise to be fulfilled.

• craving for fresh orange juice -_-"

seriously.someone, tell me what to do. cz im really lost dude. help? anyone. :'/

p/s: sorry.

untuk anda.

hoi anda, anda lah yg tengah baca ni. saya bukan apa, saya x suka tindakan anda yg baca blog saya dan tweet mengenainya. dah lah sombong! huh! kbai. maaf emosi sat -_-"

"are you in love?"

"For now, I'm not in love with anyone. Adore tu ada. Tapi since last time I don't have anyone close, I've been thinking. Takde 1 pun relationship aku yg x melalaikan aku. Yg x buat aku lupa akhirat. Everything buat aku lagi cintakan dia, n lagi cintakan dunia. So I decide, aku x nak pilih mana2 cinta sebab I know it will only bring me further from Allah. N sejak tu, aku makin rapat dengan famili. Macam mana sibuk pun ayah, ibu, kakak, abang sume, I'll always love them, miss them. Sebelum ni aku x pernah rasa nikmat sayang keluarga sendiri. Cz I'm too busy seeking love from others. Now that I've felt it, I never want to loose them anymore."

ulcer

Okay, so post ni sangatlah merepek dan anda sangatlah tak digalakkan untuk membacanya. Ahakss. So this post is about ulcer. Tahu ulser mulut tu? Haa. Yg tu lah. Cerita dia camni, haritu aku tengah mandi, pastu tetiba masa gosok gigi tu baru aku sedar ulser aku dah hilang pastu tetiba terfikir, ulser tu dia lebih kurang macam relationship jugak lah kan. Ada masa, dia datang, pastu dia pegi. Kejap je. Pastu kalo dah lama tak kene teringat jugak lah kan, "eh, aku dah lama x kene ulser do". Haa pastu ulser ni sebab x cukup air kan, kalo relationship tu sebab apa eh? Iman barangkali. Sobs :') pastu ulser tu kalo x kaco, dia x sakit, kalo kaco tu, pehh, berguling dibuatnya.. okay tu hiperbola. Hahaa. K dah habis merepek. Abaikan. K bai :3

wind

Terengganu. A place which i spent most my life. But it is never my permanent address. But then, this is the place which i call home. The place which i wish to be at when im lost. The place which i hope my family would gather and have some laugh. The place which i found love. The beach. Where the earth, water, sky and wind stay together. Where i would stand facing the endless sea. Shined by the beautiful sun. And let myself be eaten by the heavy wind. The soft wind, touching every inch of my body, mind, soul. And my heart especially. Wind full of speed, taking together my misery with them. I wish of the presence of wind, forever with me. Truly, dear wind. I do love you. With all my heart. Thank you.

blergh.

Lama aku menghilang, tetiba rajin pulak update. Pasaipa? Tah lah, tetiba this is my choice of medium to luahkan what i want to say. Less people maybe. Or cz i know ada sikit sangat orang yg akan baca. Tapi sekarang update pakai tab so dia x boleh enter enter so post dia jadi macam haram sikit. Puihh.. haha. To those yg baca, ignore je, please.. haha. Post2 lama macam memalukan but still, kenangan of my foolishness. So just let it be there je okay. Haha. Ni memang bebetui camporization dah bahasa aku ni.. maap lah ye pencinta bahasa sekalian. K, thanks for reading. Sorry for any mistakes i've made. Enjoy your beautiful life okay sayang sayang sekalian. Papai loveliesss :*

wish.

I wish of your presence full of comfort, I wish of your touch full of warmth, I wish of your eyes full of love, I wish of your voice full of calmness, I wish of your breath full of life, And I wish of you. But in the end, I wish of these wishes to dissapear, Please oh please, Dear wishes go away, For all you've caused are just pain and misery, For wanting to be wanted, When all I could afford is to wish.

by someone

- How can the light of islam rise when most the teenager of islam is still asleep during sunrise? - majioriti remaja sekarang sangat terasa bila kawan dia tak datang lepak sama2 tapi x pernah kisah kalau kawan tak hadir berjemaah solat jumaat. -Dunia dan akhirat umpama dua hujung yang berlainan di satu magnet. Apabila kamu menghampiri salah satunya, maka kamu akan menjauhi hujung lagi satu.

Ignorance by Paramore ♥

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me Well, I guess I'll make my own way It's a circle, a mean cycle I can't excite you anymore Where's your gavel? Your jury? What's my offense this time? You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me Well, sentence me to another life Don't wanna hear your sad songs I don't wanna feel your pain When you swear it's all my fault 'Cause you know we're not the same No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same Yeah, I've got friends who stuck together We wrote our names in blood But I guess you can't accept that the change is good It's good, it's good Well, you treat me just like another stranger Well, it's nice to meet you, sir I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out You treat me just like another stranger Well, it's nice to meet you, sir I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out Ignorance is your new best friend Ignorance is your new best friend This is the best thing that could've happened Any longer, and I wouldn't have made it It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture I'm just a person, but you can't take it The same tricks that, that once fooled me They won't get you anywhere I'm not the same kid from your memory Well, now I can fend for myself Don't wanna hear your sad songs I don't wanna feel your pain When you swear it's all my fault 'Cause you know we're not the same No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same Yeah, we used to stick together We wrote our names in blood But I guess you can't accept that the change is good It's good, it's good Well, you treat me just like another stranger Well, it's nice to meet you, sir Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out You treat me just like another stranger Well, it's nice to meet you, sir Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out Ignorance is your new best friend Ignorance is your new best friend Ignorance is your new best friend Ignorance is your new best friend Well, you treat me just like another stranger Well, it's nice to meet you, sir Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out You treat me just like another stranger Well, it's nice to meet you, sir I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

stop judging. just stop.

Hey you, yeah you. The one with the non-stop criticizing words and fingers pointing at everyone but yourself. All you do is comment on this and comment on that, this is wrong, that is wrong. Dude, can you just stop those judgement. And in the end, do you even guide those you're blaming, those you find guilty, to the right path? No right? Not even an itsy bitsy effort. You just looked down to those who are lost and less fortunate than you are. And do you ever realize how your words will kick off their spirit? Spirit to change, to make an effort to be welcomed to this world, to be a better person. You'll crushed their hopes. You'll block the only light they see. And you, dont even want to know them. Because you think you are high standard and they does not have what it takes to stand beside you. To even exist in your world. Open your eyes, dude. All your stuff, all the things that you are so proud of today, just realize that they can dissappear. Just in a blink of an eye. Or even any time shorter than that. If gods will. What we do, is never enough. So dont ever stop trying. And stop judging. You never walked their path. So, stfu.

me

Others > me Boy friends > girl friends Old friends >> new friends Hard to get along with if you are a girl Easy to get along with if you are a boy Love laughing, a lot Have anger management problems Rather be quiet Love, forever love Hate, forever hate Dark past, still tied to Ive got my own reason why am i doing this life my own way. And i didnt care if you dont agree with my way. My life, my way.

you

Once, we are everything i need. My calmness, my joy, the reason that i smile. But then, in the end, you make me feel so empty inside and out. Everything i did seems effortless to you. Im sorry but im never a strong person. Im weak and fragile. I cant do this anymore. No more. So now, im on my own. I have nothing anymore to prove. Nothing to fight for. Nothing to loose. I dont need you to say im beautiful, i dont need you to make me feel special. I am better by my own without you. I dont need you. You know who you are. I am tired Ya Allah. Tired of trying, trying to convince myself that its going to be okay, trying to ignore the numbness and pain that i fell in my heart, trying to feel any presence of emotions left in my heart, trying my best to satisfy everyone but myself. Guide myself, Ya Allah. Help me, Ya Allah. For i am just a normal helpless human. And i am on my way to give up on life.

differences

People say differences complete each other. But then, you can see yourself. We are in two different world, which never met, and should never collide. We talk different language, we see different view, we passed different roads. Hope for different dreams. We both know there is awkward wall which we shouldn't pass. The way you see it, outer, the talk, the walk, the future. The way i see it, the tears behind the laugh, the joy behind every hardship, and the desire of the unwanted. You should see sometimes, that this world is never yours. The sacrifice to see others smile is much more worth than your own. You should see. That dissapointment itself is a regret. And life is all about lives.

:)

just another story..i dont know whether im desperate or something but now im feeling like i am putting my hope only on this guy that i just know..he is Nik Muhammad Izzat,from sungai buloh n currently doing hi practical at petronas penapisan,paka,terengganu..which is a department next to my father's..cz it felt like im already done being dissapointed by hoping to the person that i know,so putting my hopes on a stranger seems like a rational thing to do..dy iktikaf kat masjid negeri sebab x nak susahkan ayah dy kene amik dy malam2,it is khamis malam jumaat n it is masa bulan Ramadhan..i dont know,tapi everything happen for their own reason kan..n i am so sure that there is also reason why i met him that night,that time,there..he has not contacted me yet but hey,im still hoping..n ill wait for him anyhow :)